Definition of Life and Memories.

I used to hear ‘a friend in need is a friend indeed’, assuming it’s true, but I truly never experience it before. In fact I found out my friends do care about me, but is tenderness from words really enough? If it does, then what’s the point for us to be granted a brain? I mean, when I’m in deep thoughts or dilemma, yes, many ‘are you okay or not?’ but it’s mere words! I don’t care if I’m being too sensitive or whatsoever, but can’t someone do more than words? Even a pat could means 10 times the caring than words.

Sometimes, they know how miserable I am, but for no reason they just ignore it. Perhaps I’ve been too caring for people, always be by their side when they need help. Moreover some will just deepen my wound by saying something pointless, you don’t want examples.

I am a full-time thinker, and my brain works a lot than normal people. Before doing anything I will be considering the consequences and possibilities of failure, and that is also what made me being treated as a dumbfuck. I have tried to share my problems, but the feedback I got is extremely outrageous, all nonsense. “Go play games?” craps while I just need someone to talk to me.

Now I am thinking how to let them stay miserable, perhaps by sitting back and watch them fall with my own eyes like what I’ve seen by myself. I know, after them seeing this post they will be like so regretful and tons of drama will be appearing, this time, get lost.