Definition of Life and Memories.

With me being no exception, I have numerous dilemmas ahead of me. People used to tell me “be yourself”, and I had a hard time squeezing my brain for that two words. The essence is if “myself” could sort out the problems, I wouldn’t need to spend time pleading for remedies.

Back to the same topic, I’m still on my way to get the girl I like. As far as I know myself the best, I show tenderness to every friends I have and I never desert them. Although this sounds like bragging about myself, but they are at a higher priority than myself, for instance I did spend my whole night to appease my friend on the night before my finals (I didn’t screw up my exams though ).

There is just a gap between me and her which I knew of the existence but I can’t tell what is it. I totally understand that she has no obligation to be obsessed with me, but however I just don’t know the chasm between me and her which deters me from fostering a close relationship with her. But nonetheless, I still derive satisfaction by watching her smiling and doing well from her back, and will continue to ensure her happiness only until the lust is gone.

While days ago my friend had enlightened me by telling me the fact that “there are millions of them outside, why mingle and linger to only one?”. I lauded his statement, but..if and only if the lust can be eradicated for once and for all.

See, to be frank, I don’t find girlfriend to have sex or to do some intimate talks, what I need is someone to ease my burden off my shoulders, I have too much to tell, with too little words to describe.