Voice of the renaissance guy

by Nick on May.30, 2009, under Confession

After the total face lift, I’m not in a place to choose who I want to be with, it’s moulded and set. I can’t communicate with my old gang any longer without bringing out my former impression. It’s done.

The new Nick accepts speech differently, he finds foul words intimidating and insulting. Should I revert back to the old me, or live on with my new path? But the old me did gain acceptance among friends, and happiness as well, it made me more of a prominent person which I am hunger for it since primary school.

I brought out this concept several days ago, which is in your life, you’re the decision-maker, you’re the one who chooses to bring and oust people, not others. It’s very true, but upon embedding this into me, I might lose them because they don’t know what I am into. And what’s more, they don’t know who I am, yet.

1 Comment for this entry

Caffy
May 31st, 2009 on 9:21 am
The new you.
I never really understood (at least not recently) what’s the big hoo-hah about gaining acceptance from anyone. It doesn’t really make sense. You said gain acceptance from “friends”, yet I find people you (well I, really) have to strive to gain acceptance from not real friends. You look for friends that are on the same wavelength as yourself, not hang out with whoever and struggle to fit in. So really trying to be someone you’re not with the aim of “fitting in” is just like volunteering yourself for torture without any real, concrete reason.
I don’t see the point in trying so hard to be this person everyone is, anyway. At the end it doesn’t bring happiness but pain. But maybe it’s just me, I’ve learned that it’s pointless to grovel for acceptance all the time. Just don’t think friendship works that way.