Definition of Life and Memories.

Ironically, I had found the dark side of ‘concern’ while pondering all the ‘concerns’ I’ve gotten. It’s about my quest to get a girl.

It is a fact that among the concerns, there are obscure ones, but I think that if I apply those concerns, my confidence and faith will be succumbed to nothing. I’ve had heard numerous advice and concerns from her friends (e.g. telling me that’s impossible because they heard or saw something), but those are alleged statements, and is not viable to heed on.

It’s indisputable that ‘one is not guilty unless proven guilty’. The aspersions are yet to be proven, but I’ve been affected by it; I’m gullible. However now I’m more immune to those ‘concerns’, as those are yet-to-be proven statements, I couldn’t let intangible thoughts stop me from achieving my aim, which is to get her.

Everyone knew the answer (about the chances of getting her), included me, but we just kept quiet. Those are concerns, but whether they are good or bad, I guess time couldn’t really lend me a hand to divulge those concerns from my prying eyes. How would it be if there is even one person to stand in my shoes, to confide something which are hard to describe, to complaint things which are perplexing and unsolvable but keep trying to solve it with mere determinations, sole determination.

(This paragraph is written with no offence) Pray to god again? It would bring me to no avail, after a myriad counts of praying to the almighty, where all my detriments are considered as ‘happened for a reason’ and my good returns are considered as ‘god’s grace’.

I may be good at flattering and placating people, but in relationship, I’m still a novice. I was being told that my time hasn’t come yet (for a relationship), where when my time has come, I don’t even have choice to resist but to succumb to it. But since people are able to make love out of nothing at all, why couldn’t I?

Complaining like a lad, sometimes may cajole myself and even give me confidence. Better than relying on baseless allegations, which will eventually entangle myself into a endless impasse.