Definition of Life and Memories.

Ahh, have been seeking love for so long till I’ve forgotten what I have been looking for at the start, and now a surge of the feeling that I have longed for made me realized that what I wanted, is already with my possession.

I guess after all what I have been seeking for is attention and care. And hence I misunderstood the whole concept by thinking that only a beloved can grant me that, somehow I was wrong, so wrong which made my life seemed so peculiar for me. Now that I got a bunch of friends being so close, so kind to me and I am so “in love” that the lust of love have all gone, I guess love is not necessarily requires the ingredient of a couple.

On the other way, I am now in a quest of searching for “myself”, due to that long period of blending in friends’ lives to get attention, I am no longer myself now. I spoke for a reason, I approached them for a reason, even my smile has a reason too. This made me sound evil and heinous, but that’s the fact though, no point running away from myself as it has been taking control over me for a long long time. Time to get back on track!