Regrets, I’ve had too much

by Nick on May.13, 2009, under Confession

Note: I’m not being emo, distraught or insane, just expressing what I have just found out minutes ago.

I have a slew of thoughtful and far-sighted plans everyday, and yet none came true until I just realized at this very moment. I guess that is what called a failure, being failed to fulfil what the plans were set by me. Love, studies, friends, too much mistakes have been done and although they are a solid fact, I am still regretting for how worthless and reckless I was in my past.

Plans, I laid out, planned with bustling and vibrant enthusiast to complete it, ended up with fruitless and futile results. I thought I was supposed to completely put to blame on myself for the failures, but then again, it’s not very easy to conduct and make a plan succeed. It takes courage and luck into account. It is always easy to say,

“Just go for it, what is there to be afraid of?”

“After this trial, your fear will be quenched, long gone”

“Why others can do it while I can’t? All it takes it just a go”

These encouragements used to grow repugnantly when I was trying to get a plan come true, but at the end I realized, a courage is not just a good-to-go ready-made strength, you may refute my point of view, but you will surely understand when you’re in my shoes. I had a girlfriend in the past and it isn’t I am the one who confessed, so I have not tried confessing yet, and therefore it’s like a myriad of hearts beating in my body when I am trying to speak to the girl I like, it’s frightening, yet anguish to see how failure I am

2 Comments for this entry

Jamie
May 14th, 2009 on 1:45 am
If you’re afraid of what will turn out, then you’ll never suceed. If you like a girl, then you should confess, otherwise the girl will not know what you really feel about her. And sooner or later, she will get tired of it for your attitude. So be brave and initiate to speak to her, instead of waiting for her to speak to you first, and things will turn out well.
Jane
May 14th, 2009 on 10:45 am
If you don’t try your best first, you’ll never succeed. If you like the girl, speak to her more often and be the one that talks to her first instead of waiting for her to come to you first. If you do not overcome this, she’ll eventually get tired and sick of your cold attitude. Tell her how you feel so she’ll not have doubts. If you can do this, I’m sure things will turn out well. Do your best! Good luck.