Definition of Life and Memories.

If life is depicted as a journey on a road, it’s true at some point we have to make a decision, namely yes, or no. If you have not travelled the path you chosen far enough, you are still able to resile and return to the split path and take the other route, but the consequence is that you will be left behind by your peers.

When it came time to make decision, I used to ponder too much until I can’t stand firm with my decision. Before making a decision, I will weigh up the pro and cons so that I won’t make a wrong choice, it’s according to the Chinese idiom where it tells one to think three times before proceed. Perhaps I made more than “three times”, thus it disrupted my initial thought and point of view.

Hence in my conversations, (it’s my habit that) I don’t really provide an unequivocal answer. For instance when someone asked me if there is class on the next day, I will answer “should be” or “probably” or “I think so” even if I’m very certain with the answer. Subsequently this attitude pissed some people off, but I do afraid if my answer or reply might be wrong and will mislead their plans to go awry.

Now I’ve come to another split path where I have to choose whether to ditch a friend or not, this friend has a great influence in me and I can feel I’m slowly adapting and adopting to his method of living, as in personality and attitude. I nearly started to smoke because of him. Friends have been asking me to keep away from him as they told me that I am slowly drifting apart from who I am. I actually decided to ditch him long ago, but the problem keep revolves about the same question – whether to ditch him or not. This friend did enlighten me in some of my personal issues and unshackle some of my thoughts, and I’m still considering now whether…