Definition of Life and Memories.

You guys should have known about my determination to revert myself back to the tranquil and the normal Nick after being given some words of wisdom by a friend of mine. With no sense of doubt that being someone who doesn’t speaks foul words is one of the factors of poise in men, but by doing that I have brought myself a consequence, which is that I have to depart from the gang I used to amid in, thus I am in consideration to oust that villain out of my life. I’m at a position where I have to seize an action as soon as possible with all benefits and consequences in contemplation, to apprehend which route I will be placed on, perhaps forever.

After I quelled and foiled my worthless disposition within two days, I realize that I can’t communicate well with my old gang any more, it’s as if there is an invisible barrier hampering our distance to be more closer. Without the usual usage of terms and actions, we’re seemingly close but actually there is already a distance between us.

They knew, they knew there’s something fishy going on with me, but yet I refuted and retorted with a smile, somehow they knew what was in my mind, they said I’ve changed, for about a week already, which is the day I plighted for a change. It’s time for a decision to be made, either to depart, or bind.

I like a girl, no past tense. Since the day I moved to a new school, she’s like the first or second girl I met. I looked at her, knowing that my heart is already adhere to her look despite there are other better ones. She did not see me as a man, and I did not reveal to her I am a man.

I was an undercover, being a friend but not a girlfriend’s beloved. The passion towards her was solid, tough, and immovable. I talked to her, not. She knew it, not.

She’s just a young girl indulging into her teenage life, I gave her an Alias, Jamie. Jamie is tall, a near round shaped head, short hair, and… a girl I guess. I do not think she was a girl though, she must be an angel, with codename Jamie, and real name Angel.

Angel, you are the actress of my dream, the foundation of my life. I am always right here for you if you need me, for I will never dislike you.