Definition of Life and Memories.

I used to hear ‘a friend in need is a friend indeed’, assuming it’s true, but I truly never experience it before. In fact I found out my friends do care about me, but is tenderness from words really enough? If it does, then what’s the point for us to be granted a brain? I mean, when I’m in deep thoughts or dilemma, yes, many ‘are you okay or not?’ but it’s mere words! I don’t care if I’m being too sensitive or whatsoever, but can’t someone do more than words? Even a pat could means 10 times the caring than words.

Sometimes, they know how miserable I am, but for no reason they just ignore it. Perhaps I’ve been too caring for people, always be by their side when they need help. Moreover some will just deepen my wound by saying something pointless, you don’t want examples.

I am a full-time thinker, and my brain works a lot than normal people. Before doing anything I will be considering the consequences and possibilities of failure, and that is also what made me being treated as a dumbfuck. I have tried to share my problems, but the feedback I got is extremely outrageous, all nonsense. “Go play games?” craps while I just need someone to talk to me.

Now I am thinking how to let them stay miserable, perhaps by sitting back and watch them fall with my own eyes like what I’ve seen by myself. I know, after them seeing this post they will be like so regretful and tons of drama will be appearing, this time, get lost.

Have you ever wonder what the past had done to us until we are what we are now? The answer is one and only – Coincidence. For instance with past coincidences we met strangers who we called friends. Coincidence takes in a lot of factors, if you were to count it I guess there will be up to thousands like time, schedule and luck. Even weather is a factor of coincidence too! Some might got a little blur right now, but I’ll show you an example:
You met a friend by today in a shopping mall, but do you know what brought you two together? First, you both picked the same time to go to the shopping mall. Then, both of you met at the same stall or shop. Focus outside of the box, if you were to be attracted by something like computer accessories, the chances of meeting your friend will be zero, unless another coincidence happens.

We have our friends, property, studies and everything by coincidence. I could have lost my arm or leg if I was out for today if coincidences happen. The college I am studying now was because of coincidence too, I don’t really fancy about educational fair, but if I was absent in that educational fair, I will not be studying law nor meeting the friends I’m glad to have right now.

Several days ago I got to know a new friend from a game, the name is Valerie. The game has so many rooms and I met her in the particular time and the particular room joining the particular game, coincidence really plays a big role!

In “Nick’s world definition of words”,

Childish – A homosapien dazzled in hope and always with incredible thoughts, a good example when I was young : I used to ask 5 times a day, if a plane were to collide with a train, which one will survives? Hah that is really one memorable moment, people used to get “umm…” or the most popular answer is ” How can both of them collide?”

I’m thankful to the childish me as they have given me so much memorable, happy and precious pictures of the past. Although silly, but it’s proud to tell someone how far your thought can reach when you were childish.

Childish, with no age limit used to provide fun to the “bearer” and their surroundings. Their god granted acts can really cracks someone up.

Nevertheless, as our age increases we tend to put a distance with “childish”, I guess most of us have misinterpreted the usage of childish. In fact for me, the ultimately path to happy and cheerful is to indulge oneself with a small portion (at least) with childishness. With childish by our side, we tend to think things positively and with the countless ” what if ” the answer to a single decision could takes hours, but promising with fruitful outcome.

It’s sad to say that I’m losing the childish thoughts day by day, wondering how my thoughts will be narrowed day by day, and what is left to trigger my laughter?

Every object that comes into our attention gives us choices to make, to take them; to leave them alone. Numerous amount of things happen around us everyday, and sometimes we have to make a decision whether to ‘fight or flight’ it. Challenges are hard, but rewarding, it’s up to you to overwhelm and dominate the challenge in order to get the reward. We are weak, we tend to give up very easily, however, we can’t complete a task if no effort is wasted.

‘You don’t win until you win’, this sentence inspired me a lot when I almost gave up sometimes. Not even bible states that you might fail if you have tried to put your sweat in your work. Before we pick up a task, we should have already known the consequences and benefits for doing it. The first step of everything is always bitter and hard, if you don’t reach for your first step, you will never make it to your second step.

If you fail and you think that the world is opposing you, think about Thomas Edison, he did not take any encouragement but instead it was discouraging words he had taken. It was ‘impossible’ he intended to conquer, what about us?

Which breathing girl doesn’t seek for a perfect partner? Muscular, tall, handsome, rich, talented are what girls always dreamed their boyfriend to be. But expectations is what that brought them down.

Their expectations have given those so called perfect guy a big advantage – to get advantage using their advantage. A guy can disguise, until they got a bulls eye on their prey, this can always be seen when girls fell for the traps of their boyfriend, or perfect partner. They have the choice, so do the opposite sex beings. Girls usually have enormous expectations then will fall down hard when they are rejected, and there comes the stupid intentions of suicide and revenge(e.g. to other girl for stealing her love)

This ‘expectation’ surely gives the ‘non-perfect’ guys a big impact. They will feel beaten up, as if the world is to oppose them. This leads to further cheating on girlfriends and rape cases. They think they are not as the same standard as the perfect ones, so they want to be good. Who is classified as those non-perfect? Fat, plump, poor, ugly, or whatever leads to a disinterest in girls.

Apparently you could say they are equally important because they both meant a universe for you. What if a day you were placed in a situation where you only have a choice to choose one of them to live? You may choose not to answer it, but such cases might appear out of the blue, for instance you have a bag of blood, whether for your mother or your beloved partner if they got into an accident? In fact, I could not tell you an answer, instead I’ll give you points to let you figure out which is important, choice’s yours.

If you sacrifice your partner, then you could have lost a chance to get the perfect adhesive force of love anymore. It takes time, luck, mood, environment and interest for a long lasting couple to be created. Say, you have a girlfriend/boyfriend and you got her/him by with ease, I can assure you that your relationship don’t last. How could you fit a shotgun shell into a pistol to create a ignition and blast, it just doesn’t make sense.

If you sacrifice your family member(or family in general), then you will lose the person who carries the same blood with you, who lived with you, who shared happiness with you, who defends you till his last breathe. A girlfriend can be found in the streets, but a family member or will never appear twice. The memories will just vanish and disappear, rendering it lost in time and not to be created anymore in the future.

It’s just a question worth for a brief thinking, I find it is simple yet hard to spill an answer. I’ve scratched my head for 3 months, but still have no idea which one I will save if they both were in trouble, and the unfortunate one will gone.

Most of us prefer having plenty of friends where one of the major reason is they are afraid to be lonely. Having lots of friends is not something harmful, but when the two of you are going to be apart, that’s the time where you will feel like torn in pieces. I’ve seen people lost their smile for months when their friends have to leave them for studies or migrate to other countries.

When you own them you feel glad for not being lonely, but when you lose them you will get two times the ‘misery’ instead. This is because both of you have shared a moment of happiness or sadness that pulled the bond of friendship closer.

Storing a friend in your brain means storing the memories with your friend in your brain too. Imagine how many times you will be pierced right through your heart when they have to leave you. I have experienced this once when I move to another place, I stood in front of my friends, speechless and appreciating what we had both done together, prayed for each other, and given out tears.

Though you may deny my statement saying that you could learn how to appreciate you friends through parting, I do not think that the lesson is worth for the torment as one will definitely obtain this lesson sooner or later, it may just arrive anytime.

Everyone has some bastards in their head and so do I, but have you ever thought why such evil, miserable, pathetic, filthy, useless, dumb person can live long enough in your life? I guess I found the perfect answer for it after have a little conversation with my friend who hates someone a lot but can’t seems to get the person out of her life. The answer is simple, which is that you still treat the person as a friend.

In high school, I used to sit with a weirdo where his attitude is very unpredictable, not to say unique. His words are kind of provoking although now I understood he wasn’t trying to get me into steam deliberately. I scolded and pointed out his mistakes almost everyday, hoping that one day I will not be bothered by his existance anymore. He never tried to process what I spoke, just keep repelling it by giving tons of excuses.

In high school there are always a group of students forming ‘coalition’ to anti people they hate, and I certainly know those who they hate for their infamous attitude or actions. Indeed they have something which tempt one to whack them for no reason, so do I. Surprisingly I did not even spend a second in my life to convince or advice them to correct their mistakes. Now here’s the point, if one is not being aware of what mistakes he has done, wouldn’t him will continue to make the same mistakes again and again until someone pointed out his mistakes?

I am sure you have got some clue of what I am trying to get you to understand now. You hate someone so much but you can’t forget him, what reason could it be if you’re not trying to make him realize his mistakes so that he can be a better person?

One of the factor which causes males to die earlier than females is that guys are being too selfish to share some of their secrets with their friends. What I meant secret refers to true, real secret that your reputation or dignity is embedded with it. Provided my statement above is valid, one should really, really spend some time to find a true friend which is worthy to share your bitterness.

It has been years since the day I was ready to introduce a true friend into my life, my dull,simple, and pathetic life. Of course in between that I got betrayed plenty of times with an amount that you wouldn’t even want to know for being too desperate to find a true friend. I am a shy person, and I dare not indulge myself into my friend’s ‘chit-chats’, this little wretched attitude was what that caused my downfall. Hence, I did not have a pair of ears to borrow.

As for now I am more opened to share my secrets with my normal friends, I turned out to be a more cheerful person, it was great and cool. By letting my friends to know my secrets, the caring ones are so kind so stand before me and ask if I am having some problems and my thought of life is meaningless is now vanished. The dark times has ended.

In conclusion, it’s really a good practice to have some burden carry together with your mates, you never walk alone, your decision will be revised over so that your road will be well set up. I believe several brains could overcome a dilemma better than one. With worries and frustration rendered, you are less likely to fall sick too!

The term ‘pretty’ is one of the word where males are able to process and make use of it fully. In these days, guys seek for pretty girls, and for girls that are classified as ugly will be dumped to a side, or even worse they will be condemned. The word of classification ‘pretty’ could simply determine the popularity and future of a female. For me, pretty girls are evil and malignant, you will never know what misery will come ahead to be with them.

First of all having a pretty partner isn’t as easy as imagined, you need to face up a competition in order to claim the prize. But wait, are you clear with the challengers that you’re going to beat them all? The numbers could sum up to 20 or more, who knows? And to get the girl in your possession you will have to sacrifice your precious money and time which could not be refunded like supermarkets, I do think it’s much worth to spend your time and money to invest them in bank. Furthermore, every time when you are trying to have a sweet time with her it will be broken up by calls and SMS, it usually ended with the guy gets pissed and fucked up.

I feel that I am specially granted, I can easily fall into average-looking girls that are often classified as ‘ugly’ by my friends. But for me, getting them is nothing much different than hooking up Megan Fox or Angelina Jolie. With this ability I really had good time with my ex-girlfriends, their heart are mine and no one is there to grab with me.

I used to have this weird question, that is, if guys only seek for pretty couple, then what would happen to those below-average looking girls, are they going to be disposed or should they spend a wholelot of money for cosmetics and plastic surgery? The term pretty do deserts some unfortunates below-average looking girls, that is why I have never laugh to girls who are trying to get themselves pretty by dressing up like a Cinderella or whatsoever.

To Be Continued.