Definition of Life and Memories. » My Life http://www.kojieyang.com Sun, 25 Jul 2010 22:34:01 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0 Too many “other people’s problem” http://www.kojieyang.com/my-life/too-many-other-peoples-problem/ http://www.kojieyang.com/my-life/too-many-other-peoples-problem/#comments Tue, 08 Dec 2009 18:55:52 +0000 Nick http://www.kojieyang.com/?p=404 As some of you may know, I like to hear and share my friends’ burden since young. The best form of help that I could provide is only advice. Burden and problems are something tangible for me, when I get to know about about people’s problem, their burden will accrue to myself and I am feeling meaningless to do all this.

I experienced it before, when you are desperately in need of a hand or a ear, everyone will be out of reach, or you will suddenly have a thought that the world is opposing you. I may still be considered young, but I’m old enough to sort out my problems myself, somehow it’s still congenial if someone out there is willing to bear the burden for you. Hence I rarely decline request from friends.

Nonetheless, I’m getting tired from doing all this. I am just an ordinary human and I have my limit, no one is out there giving a damn to my problems, should I retire from all this mess I done to myself?

I can be one’s Valentino, I can be one’s God, I can be one’s parents, but deep in myself I’m an evil person, I can’t disclose any further than that. I commit and conspire things subtly, I live in the dark.

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Yeah, I have been doing something silly with friends these days, something where people don’t normally do, trying to make use of every second in our life to the maximum. Last week my friends and I were actually hanging out on the bridge in front of Putrajaya office, the Prime Minister office. No one is allowed to stop and park on the bridge, I guess the legislation doesn’t apply on…5am on the morning? Haha it was fun to chit chat and talk craps with friends there, a feeling which only can be told through actual experience. For your information, we actually left our packets of drinks there when we left, yes, very unethical of a Malaysian citizen. :P

There were so many crazy things I’ve done but I can’t remember any except the bridge one. Time passes so fast when we’re enjoying it, but stagnates when we’re suffering. Nevertheless, every second passes is every second we lose in our life, better enjoy it now before our time has come eh? Haha

]]> http://www.kojieyang.com/my-life/time-blink-of-an-eye-or-just-a-redundancy/feed/ 0 The fine line between love and protection http://www.kojieyang.com/my-life/the-fine-line-between-love-and-protection/ http://www.kojieyang.com/my-life/the-fine-line-between-love-and-protection/#comments Thu, 05 Nov 2009 16:12:08 +0000 Nick http://www.kojieyang.com/?p=384 Countless times we’ve heard that their boyfriend or girlfriend are not giving enough freedom to them, it seems like when there’s love, there’s an excessive protection given to them which often lead to a burdensome love. I guess I’m loving someone now, and I intend to protect her with all I have. Love can exist by itself, it doesn’t need any “boyfriend” or “girlfriend” title nor confession to let him or her to know.

But some say love is to “give her wings when she wants to fly”. I failed to give myself a satisfactory answer when I asked myself, I can’t give her wings when she belongs to me, I just can’t. As such, I decided to just keep a distance and be her silent bodyguard.

I used to crave for relationship, kept thinking that how sweet will it be to have someone having you in mind all the time. Unfortunately I don’t think it will last long and it’s not worth for the time and effort, albeit sweet and lovely. Even the strongest everlasting love can break, I do not think that a mere “I love you” bond can last, perhaps not even for a while. Mutual breakup is desirable and is always prayed to happen, but only God knows when if it is to happen.

Therefore, I have been and will be watching her back all the time, I guess that’s the best way to “give her wings when she wants to fly”. Furthermore, I feel comfortable with it..so..that’s the way I will keep it, at least for a while.

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Recently I’ve been thinking about my past, where I live a life like a king, no, more than a king as I have total freedom. In the past, everything in the shopping mall is within my reach, there was no such thing as “cheap” or “expensive”; if I want to buy it, I buy it. I was too pampered I guess, my dad never refrain me from buying anything. From 1 buck till infinity, I can just grab everything and go home. It makes me remember of my trip to Singapore in 2004, where we spent like few thousands within days, buying all sorts of unnecessary things, included PS2.

A glamorous life like celebrities, where you could not possibilly thought that your money will come to an end, was indeed a dream for the entire human race, and I was lucky enough to experience it. Heh I can still remember the funny moment (for me) when my family went to a furniture shop and my mom asked my dad his opinion about a wardrobe, my dad answered “just buy it”. Although it may seemed lame and dull at that time, but now it cracks me up every time I think about it.

I would agree that life is a dream, where one is not feasible to enjoy throughout his or her lifetime. Back to the same old Chinese saying, humans have to go through four stages in life, which are being born, ageing, getting sickness and death. As far as I know, when we get older, the truth is we’re actually getting useless. Think of it, what can we do when we’re around 70? Roller coaster? Some gory and sickening movie such as Saw or Final Destination? No, even a hide-and-seek wouldn’t work.

It has been three years, and I’m standing firm and tall. I would not know if I am to suffer any breakdown in the future, but..while my sanity lasts within me, I’ll be who I am and just playing my role in the history.

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Unfortunately the drawback is the serene mood of the surroundings gives me a feeling on loneliness, where everyone is sleeping and you feels like you’re estranged in a third world. But I just like the midnight, even if I’m not doing anything, or merely listening songs, I would, I would do that just for the sake of enjoying the midnight life. The quiet surroundings will tempt you to recall back what you might have forgotten, and also those which you would not want to recall, such as some mistakes.

Ahh there’s no point in this post anyway, just writing something out of nothing. :P

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I have a slew of aims in my life, not to say glorious, but they made up the poise in me. Perhaps I’ve been too focused on my aims which overrides my sense of life. To be honest, I have only one aim in my life, a foolish aim, and I never had the chance to get away from it. Among all my acts to achieve my aim, some are worth to be reminisced of, and some, are mere absurd. Our ‘last goodbye’ may be as near as the next minute, and hence I no longer feel like harping on only one aim and derail all my other objectives in life. I’m just too far away from home.

Therefore, I’ve been living in my past for so long, it’s time to look into my future and live my life with no regrets.

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It’s about why making life dreadful :

Title: Why make life dreadful?

It’s obvious that a big community is not practicable to have zero-dispute, and hence being another Malaysian inhaling the same oxygen as other Malaysians do, I truly understand the woes that Malaysians are suffering. The point here is why complicate trivial matters while it’s not even worth spending time to be wasted? Corruption cases do happen, but I see a slew of racism and discriminating comments spit out from people’s mouth as well as questioning the efficiency of Police almost everyday. I say, why get furious and risked being battered by sensitive people when the words went into their ears? Or shall I say is our own matters not enough to be pressured to death already? Just let the authorities to handle things. Rome was not built in one day, and it’s also not possible to be destroyed in one day, I’m sure every clutter will be eradicated one day, without the unnecessary insults and complaints.

El Nino has struck Malaysia, and this issue is raised and worried by the “warmhearted” Malaysians. Apart being “warmhearted”, the tenderness did not halt the open burning activity within the vicinity of my beloved town, PJ and instead it can be seen more often than usual. They are worried of their health, and in other way trying to pose a threat to their health. Is it really necessary? Are Malaysians trying to take advantage of the government until we ended up like Singapore, to prove that where we are really a bunch of people who needed to be controlled and stalled like animals?

Every views are not meant to be retorted and vindicated to justify it, instead it’s merely a point of view like our fingerprints, where it’s diverse like us, Malaysians. You have a different point of view towards something doesn’t mean that someone else doesn’t has one against you.

I’m trying to say that it’s no fault to pitch up an issue, but if it’s something to be solved by time, then we should let it be. Come on, life is already short enough to be enjoyed, you don’t have to make it worse. World Peace!

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FYI again my BMI is at….22.23, ages away from overweight. :D

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