Definition of Life and Memories.

Everyone has some bastards in their head and so do I, but have you ever thought why such evil, miserable, pathetic, filthy, useless, dumb person can live long enough in your life? I guess I found the perfect answer for it after have a little conversation with my friend who hates someone a lot but can’t seems to get the person out of her life. The answer is simple, which is that you still treat the person as a friend.

In high school, I used to sit with a weirdo where his attitude is very unpredictable, not to say unique. His words are kind of provoking although now I understood he wasn’t trying to get me into steam deliberately. I scolded and pointed out his mistakes almost everyday, hoping that one day I will not be bothered by his existance anymore. He never tried to process what I spoke, just keep repelling it by giving tons of excuses.

In high school there are always a group of students forming ‘coalition’ to anti people they hate, and I certainly know those who they hate for their infamous attitude or actions. Indeed they have something which tempt one to whack them for no reason, so do I. Surprisingly I did not even spend a second in my life to convince or advice them to correct their mistakes. Now here’s the point, if one is not being aware of what mistakes he has done, wouldn’t him will continue to make the same mistakes again and again until someone pointed out his mistakes?

I am sure you have got some clue of what I am trying to get you to understand now. You hate someone so much but you can’t forget him, what reason could it be if you’re not trying to make him realize his mistakes so that he can be a better person?

One of the factor which causes males to die earlier than females is that guys are being too selfish to share some of their secrets with their friends. What I meant secret refers to true, real secret that your reputation or dignity is embedded with it. Provided my statement above is valid, one should really, really spend some time to find a true friend which is worthy to share your bitterness.

It has been years since the day I was ready to introduce a true friend into my life, my dull,simple, and pathetic life. Of course in between that I got betrayed plenty of times with an amount that you wouldn’t even want to know for being too desperate to find a true friend. I am a shy person, and I dare not indulge myself into my friend’s ‘chit-chats’, this little wretched attitude was what that caused my downfall. Hence, I did not have a pair of ears to borrow.

As for now I am more opened to share my secrets with my normal friends, I turned out to be a more cheerful person, it was great and cool. By letting my friends to know my secrets, the caring ones are so kind so stand before me and ask if I am having some problems and my thought of life is meaningless is now vanished. The dark times has ended.

In conclusion, it’s really a good practice to have some burden carry together with your mates, you never walk alone, your decision will be revised over so that your road will be well set up. I believe several brains could overcome a dilemma better than one. With worries and frustration rendered, you are less likely to fall sick too!

The term ‘pretty’ is one of the word where males are able to process and make use of it fully. In these days, guys seek for pretty girls, and for girls that are classified as ugly will be dumped to a side, or even worse they will be condemned. The word of classification ‘pretty’ could simply determine the popularity and future of a female. For me, pretty girls are evil and malignant, you will never know what misery will come ahead to be with them.

First of all having a pretty partner isn’t as easy as imagined, you need to face up a competition in order to claim the prize. But wait, are you clear with the challengers that you’re going to beat them all? The numbers could sum up to 20 or more, who knows? And to get the girl in your possession you will have to sacrifice your precious money and time which could not be refunded like supermarkets, I do think it’s much worth to spend your time and money to invest them in bank. Furthermore, every time when you are trying to have a sweet time with her it will be broken up by calls and SMS, it usually ended with the guy gets pissed and fucked up.

I feel that I am specially granted, I can easily fall into average-looking girls that are often classified as ‘ugly’ by my friends. But for me, getting them is nothing much different than hooking up Megan Fox or Angelina Jolie. With this ability I really had good time with my ex-girlfriends, their heart are mine and no one is there to grab with me.

I used to have this weird question, that is, if guys only seek for pretty couple, then what would happen to those below-average looking girls, are they going to be disposed or should they spend a wholelot of money for cosmetics and plastic surgery? The term pretty do deserts some unfortunates below-average looking girls, that is why I have never laugh to girls who are trying to get themselves pretty by dressing up like a Cinderella or whatsoever.

To Be Continued.

‘I came, I saw , I conquer’, this sentence is used frequently to represent the total effort of one has sacrificed after achieving his best. So do everyone, we firstly face up a challenge, we inspect it, and we complete the objectives. We should know that our life is like rowing a boat in the opposite flow of current – simply neverending and gets tougher in times, and when you give up you will just drown and get back to the start again.

Just when you least expected, something important in your life may just vanish without notice, for example my dad, he passed away due to liver cancer, although this precious treasure of mine did not disappear immediately, but as the days he gets weaker I feel like being torn apart by pieces. Surprisingly my tears did not gush out even a bit like my mother and brother did, I just mourn silently in my heart, feeling grateful to see him released from suffering anymore further.

As compared to some of you weaklings, a mere break-up or loss of money (regardless the amount) means nothing, and yet suicide can be seen everywhere. Come on, we will never get the worst in the world, even if one lose his life he is still considered lucky as some couldn’t even die and have to live with suffer. Losing hope and feeling down are not an antidote for problems, you will still have to deal with it one day.

I don’t believe in any God, but I learn and accept the teachings from many religions that build me a betterman. However I noticed that those with a God are indeed open minded and they do not fall easily, instead they are taught to be wise in order to prevent themselves from making mistakes that is the root of suiciding. So if you’re weak you are adviced to introduce a God into your life, it will enlighten you throughout your life and will be your permanent guardian for all sorts of trouble.

Don’t take in account how many mistakes and sins you have committed, instead count the good deeds you have done. Would it better to say you have cheated your best friend twice or say you have helped your best friend twice? Mistakes are unavoidable, and mistake can also be defined as the milestone of intelligence – the more you made, the smarter you are.

So right now, live on, move forward, remember that for how many blow you have taken you are still not the worst.

P/S: Find me if you need to borrow a ear.
My MSN/Email : locomotive_nik@live.com

We have made tons of decisions and thoughts in our life, it is certainly that a big portion of our actions did not really went through a deep consideration and we tend to regret and rethink about it only after it has occurred. Does this proof the stupid side of humans? Or humans are just arrogant for being too clever?

What is our purpose to live? I used to answer this with ‘for happiness and excitement’. Nonetheless, I no longer will answer that, instead, I don’t have an answer for that and I not sure what I’m going to answer. Isn’t everything will be vanished after one has passed away? I assume you know that after one is dead everything of him will be just disappear in time, memories, wealth, and all the good deeds he has done and contributed. Hence, what is the purpose of being good? and what is the purpose for living on this so called ‘colorful’ earth since everything will turn out to be a dream.

Live, serve, contribute, sacrifice….What are these terms used for and what is the purpose of it? So do theft, murder, war, and betrayal, the difference between them is just only a word. Why do we get sadness and hatred when someone killed our beloved? If we were taught that killing is a symbol of love, isn’t that we’ll all feel glad and happy whenever our beloved got murdered?

Money, or mere rectangular paper notes where everyone dreamed to have a bunch of it has always lead humans move out of track. I wonder, why do we have to get those rectangular paper notes in order to live? Why humans murder each other to get those notes? Are they worth that much till blood must be shed? If our trades just comprise of give and take, won’t the world turn out to a better place to stay, at least a little?

Since the world is demanding peace right now, then why should the ‘peacemakers’ running trades with money? Why can’t they wipe out the term money and live together by giving and taking? Wealth and poverty are the root of war and murder, for instance US declared war over terrorism just because of they have the wealth to do that, in the other way for countries like Zimbabwe could not do shits if someone decides to mess with them. Provided the world is dominated by you, what do you obtain besides having a temporarily power and wealth which will be taken over by war in the matter of time?

Agnostic beings usually seek for God’s guidance when they are near dead, it is solely just because they are afraid of what will happen to them afterlife, they think that with the help of the God they can find a world where peace is never ending. But if we think logically (by not relating and referring any religion’s teachings), is God a toy for one to monopoly and manipulate? And since one isn’t fear for being sentenced to death and punished, then why do one fear of being lost in afterlife?

Along the years of high school life it has been great and devilish in times. I’m not sure if I’m born to be live with trouble, in fact I am the one who always get into trouble. Somehow every time when I’ve ran out of ideas to face with my ordeal, those mess will always got rendered regardless how crucial they are.

I’ve always been thinking, is there an inner strength in me which has been supporting me along the dilemmas and ordeals since I was young? Or I was built on the hands on God which I will never fall in any circumstances?

This strength, I couldn’t measure how enormous it is, maybe it can even grant me a ‘sixth-sense’ ability, who knows? I am granted. This strength might be just seemingly true, but if it is then I couldn’t get back up every time when I got knocked up.

I don’t used to believe in things that requires a whole lot of faith to get it present, for instance the existance of God which draws me into confusion and frustration when I try to get it embedded into my life.

So for now, apart from living on for my parents and future, I will also move along for this inner strength of mine, hoping that someday the truth will be revealed which is apparently impossible.

Here I arrived,
to a place where amphoterism exist,
intrinsic worth of sand,
diminish, yet uncountable,
beautiful, yet malignant.

Until the midst of nowhere,
the cloud and the sun were questioned,
Till the flame faded off,
They realized that faith was the key.

Meaning:
I just arrived to this new place, where I can get to know more people of the opposite sex. Different qualities and personalities are embedded into each person, the good ones may be hard to be noticed,  in fact they are everywhere; the bad ones are usually attractive, but harmful.

After a period of time, there will be doubts by one of the partner, and usually couples choose to break up instead of listening to their faith.

Life, the journey,
with monochromatic colors and butterflies,
accompanied by icy white and overjoyed red,
isn’t it perfect?

It is set, flattened, and furnished.
and yet pointless borders are drawn,
out of the guidance,
what worst could it be?
judged by headless beings,
the execution is just a heartbeat away.

Granted the best by Him,
where mercy always stands,
but if ignorance dominates,
the pit is dug.

Meaning:
Life supposed to be a road of joy with full of surprises and happiness, with four seasons to keep one from getting bored for all the time. The road is already designed and planned well by one’s creator, but still ignorance tempted one to go explore something which is unnecessary. Drugs, pills, and simple minded acts will finally put one into court that the chances of seeing the light again is very fine, and being sentenced to death has already predicted. We are being granted a brain which enable us to see the world more colorfully, and the brain is smart enough to get us through all odds, but if the ignorance could not be suppressed it means one has already dug a pit for himself.